Former RHOBH Star Yolanda Hadid Reveals Suicidal Past

As you know, former RHOBH star Yolanda Hadid is battling Lyme disease and it has created some dark thoughts for her. Yolanda revealed it has caused her to contemplate suicide multiple times.

Yolanda’s disease caused her to live a “cocoon” life and therefore Yolanda couldn’t handle social situations well and became desperate to get better.

Yolanda reveals in her new book, Believe Me: My Battle with the Invisible Disability of Lyme Disease, that in Christmas of 2014 with then husband David Foster, she was in Florida while receiving treatment and the couple took a walk on a beach.

“As I reach the shoreline, I take off my clothes and slip into the dark blue ocean, which is cool and comforting,” she wrote. “The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water’s ebb and flow.”

“The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water’s ebb and flow.”

“God, please just take me in a wave,” Yolanda continued. “I can’t live like this for one more day. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear.”

Yolanda came too when she thought of her three children, Gigi, Bella, and Anwar.

“One morning, I wake up with my head pounding intensely and the bones in my lower body on fire,” Yolanda wrote. “I’m going to throw up. I move as quickly as I can to the bathroom, which isn’t quickly at all. After barely making it to the toilet, I lie down on the cold bathroom floor.”

“I feel like I want to die,” Yolanda continued. “I can’t possibly go through another day. God, please take me. Please!”

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  • cat62

    Depression is a sad disease.

  • DaysofWineandRoses

    I was talking to my neighbor with Lyme Disease, and they expressed a similar sentiment; the loss of control over your body and life coupled with depression can be overwhelming. Thankfully, they are in a much better place today.

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